my little bubble

i’ve been sending emails to people. plugging; vom fass. getting bsu the credit that it...

Fri, 26 Oct 2012 23:21:11 -0400

i’ve been sending emails to people.

plugging; vom fass. getting bsu the credit that it deserves.
sam said about j.depp the other day and i froze.

really..

is this real or what?

hahahaha.

university ain’t good enough? my asse. so, drama school is only for the ‘best of the best?’ hmmmmm. what even is that? you need expression. and focus and team work. it is a come

email upon email!
why do the not reply, eh?

tomorrow.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:59:38 -0400

this.is.important.

this is vital.

get him out PLEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASE.

okay.

he’s here. how wonderful life is now you’re in the world. well, our world, not the next door neighbours.

xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

well.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:58:06 -0400

part of it. i shall send it to my best friends and print it off somewhere that’s important and cute and nice.

FEEL LIKE I HAVE JUST GOT A CLUMP OF MY SOUL AND CAUGHT IT FALLING, PEELING OFFFFFFF. OUCH.

YOU CATCH IT.

wow. hi game, lets go. nissssh. nishkaaaa. let’s be ninja’s with this shit.

Why why why whyHow....

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:54:50 -0400

Why why why whyHow. what.Hannah.Spanner.Spitfire.SnapDragon.Sillyme.Sowhydidyousaythat.whyareyounot….

listening. talking. relating. staring blankky at us.

oh god.

anxiety. josh get the fuck out of this house before i GRR.

when you realise that no matter how hard you try, your best friends will…

sososossoosososososososo

upset. about missing you that. as soon as you argue you stop. you feel that you…

"‘the greatest thing. you’ll, yes you’ll ever. learn is just to love and BE…."

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:52:13 -0400

“‘the greatest thing.
you’ll, yes you’ll ever.
learn
is just to love and BE….”

- MOULIN ROUGE

my first play. fuck it, here it is.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:51:11 -0400

it’s about love.

sadness.

grief.

that i see in you.

every day.

understanding that you are human

if you enjoy.

romeo and juliet. titanic.

juno.

edward.scissorhands.

johnny depp.

films.

anything dark.

touching.

like rabbit hole.

like……………….

breakfast at tiffany’s.

if you are going to see women in black.

for..

…

lovely…

day. and a fucking screaaaaaaaaaaaaaam.

then go.

okay. i have this image of tito crying and punching shit and..

fuck me. it hurts to think that. but it had to be done, it had to come out i haveeeeeeeeeeee to deal with this shite

no understanding that you become stiff. stuck. concrete. magnesium. magnet. you become like this, yes, you. you become like this because you are tense.

you are unhappy. you ignore your senses.

your…. sense.

of.

smell.

touch.

taste.

sense of………………………………………unconditional, undeniable, unrealistic, unsociable, un-controllable, un-done, un-ravel. none other than.. love. that deep fuzzy feeling that you have as you look to the person to your left.

aw.

whats his name?

matt.
anthony.

adam.

james.

connor.

WHO.

tell me who.

i can keep a secret if you can? or just, you know.

speak to me when you are ready and you are no longer tense, upset and…

dillydaddling in your world whilst we’re looking up and reaching.

COME THE FUCK BACK.

why.

WE SAID SO.

BOOM.

BEAT BEAT BEAT BEATBABTTEFRGJFR

BEEEP.

BEEEP

awoken.

alive.

well.

what

have we

here.

you.

who?

i see you and i can feel you but..

i don’t.

understand me.

okay.

yes.

i see

a coffee

a smile

a dance a kiss a moment a bigger moment

sex.

love and desire.

hate. jealousy.

death of….

april fools?

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:39:19 -0400

feel like this ~~play~~ story is a re-in-action of.

the people.

the colour.

the love.

the hate.

the torment.

the bliss that i have felt throughout my time as a being.

my life. my life hahahahaha. i’m sometimes glad plonked me in this body. sometimes i feel like i’m just small hands, limbs and eyes that were just you know there.

i looked

didn’t feel that anyone loved me but HIM.

him who..

errrrrrrrrr.

i can look at you.

at your almond eyes.

at the way your smile is perfectly bright and neat and…

love

YOU.

you are

just

toying.

JUST GO JUST…

pleaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaase,

OKAY.

okay?

okay. kiss?

me?

jacket? uh huh. sweet? yes.

mmm.

mmmmmmmmmmmmmhmmmm.

my fave.

it’s yum.

decadent

rich in

soup, please.

errrrrm yes, two soups :)

LOLOL.

aw :)

so.

are you going?

where?

home.

yes.

yes. i am.

you can come.

yeah?

uh huh;

oh. okay.

that was just how i felt. how i am currently thinking of this beautiful being. this beautiful, imperfect, dissolved student who was once…

~~SO bright.~~

So strong. But yeah,

he dissolved into this in front of me.

Do i like it?
No. I don’t know him?

well

I MISS THESE GUYS.

YOU. ME. US. TOGETHER. HERE. NOW.

EVERYWHERE.

WHERE?

somewhere.

where we can go..

now? yes.

okay.

oooh.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:32:14 -0400

so this is what it feels like?

oh right.

it doesn’t feel any different to what it’s been before.

the dynamic. it evokes different memories and he reminds me of someone beautifullllllll.

someone like johnny depp who is the moon. and robert downey jr. who is just the brightest sun.

anne hathaway.

who looks a million dollars. but has something that i can connect to. pain happiness sadness all wrapped into one big cooking pot.

my beautiful nan, who spends billions of…

hours.

minutes.

sitting.

watching.

laughing.

pottering.

tinkling.

hmm.

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expectations

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i feel like some people expect so much of me. it feels like there’s a massive pressure to be perfect. i’m bound to make mistakes, to say things without thinking and to make bad decisions. i won’t always get things right the first time. i just expect people to understand.

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brainbustaaahhh: Because she’s heavenly

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 16:30:13 -0400

brainbustaaahhh:

Because she’s heavenly

ayo_beatz came to lea manor the other day. so much energy, the students were like...

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 16:28:45 -0400

ayo_beatz came to lea manor the other day. so much energy, the students were like cklsdpofepoqwif0ef!

i used to get so scared of change. now not so much :)

Mon, 23 Jul 2012 16:28:18 -0400

i used to get so scared of change.

now not so much :)

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